//...strike!...\\

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

whew... finally can sit down n enter blog... wow it's been a wonderful day... hope tt tis day nvr ends... k la 16yo liao, hav to b more mature n responsible in everything i do... haha okok.. my oni wish tt the death toll 4 tis disaster to end as soon as possible, as low as possible...

//Brandon struck at 10:16 PM\\

Monday, December 27, 2004

yep... another big earthquake happened on 26th dec... tis time nearer to us, in sumatra to b exact... WTH 8.9!! cant we juz end '04 in peace? now tis morning the death toll is 12500 worldwide (i hope). tidal waves hit penang, the place i juz returned... thailand oso hit, sri lanka n india too... china experienced 4.6 n 5 on the ritcher scale too... *sign* juz now 1 of my best frens said tt 'indonesia rocks man!!' how insensitive n uncaring human can be!!!

//Brandon struck at 12:06 PM\\

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

gosh, com trainin for the future ncos has started... as usual it is so so damn pek chek, but it's common... den today 4 the 1st time in my life i tried my hands on Xbox... frankly i can see no difference frm PS2 n Xbox... mayb PS2 too complicated 4 me, xbox seems easier... hey guess wad? 1 short week frm now it's my bade!! n it's 3days away frm the new yr!! wish everyone has a merry xmas n happy new yr...

//Brandon struck at 8:12 PM\\

Sunday, December 19, 2004

sure enuff, i was hit by 3 bad patches 4 da past few days... on thurs i had a bad hair day, on fri i got a bruise frm da soccer match, sat i din do well in soccer too expectedly, sun i got a headache which thrashed my head wif every single heartbeat... muz b blood pressure too hi liao, shl go xcercise...

//Brandon struck at 11:20 PM\\

Friday, December 17, 2004

wad da hell... yesterday da barber cut my hair until so sucky, today receive a bolt out of blue tt i enter cj, not nyj... BASKET !!!

//Brandon struck at 8:44 PM\\

Sunday, December 12, 2004

hey guess wad? tis entry is made in s'pore very own airpor, changi! free 15min broadband access to the internet sia~ cool wif a capital C!! too bad i tink the timin 4 tis postin is wrong so cnnt prove... be back frm penang in wed, after t then i put in another entry, but dun itnk is frm airport... Cya n bon voyage (for me)

//Brandon struck at 10:48 AM\\

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

i can remember last time how i enjoyed my hols, playin the whole day lyk nobody's business... now after such a major hurdle passed over me, stayin at home can sucha bore bore bore wif capital B... i've been tryin to rewrite some songs but the inspiration juz isnt there.... hope i can get it soon...

//Brandon struck at 8:39 PM\\

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

o's finished.... i stay in my hse nuthin to do... play com... sian...watch ttv... more sian... read books...ok la not so sian... so when everything is quiet around me, i laid on my bed lookin at the ceiling... to everyone the ceiling is white, but 4 me white is the colour i used to look back to my past...

lookin at how many mistakes i've made... lookin at how many wrongs i've suffered... lookin at the various things tt made me heartbrokened... haiz there is juz too much sorrow in life... mayb i hav to learn to b more optimistic abt everthing i do, so tt life may, juz mayb, become more beutiful den i ever tot... gd luck....

//Brandon struck at 12:17 PM\\

Friday, December 03, 2004

i m juz so sick of being criticised, being looked down, being condemned... the more i wanna prove myself, the messier i gotten myself into... damn it y cant tis world juz gimme a chance to prove my worth?

It's like a face that i hold inside, a face that awakes when i close my eyes, a face watches everytime i lie, a face that laughs everytime i fall

pple sees many sides of me, so many i sometimes dun understand who m i, wad m i, where i'm frm... some pple sees me as a happy-go-lucky lamer, others sees me as a deep-thinkin loner, some sees me as a crazy despo lunatic, others sees me as a criminal, some sees me as a sociable peacemaker,other sees me as a quiet shadow closin its door to the world... there is juz so many characters i painted myself as, i juz dunno who i really was!! i m juz so damn damn confused....

It's haunting how i cant seems to find myself again, my walls are closing in...

Shut up when i'm talkin to u!! everything u say to me takes me 1 step closer to the edge, n i'm about to break!!

even though i felt so many wrongs already in my short life, i juz used the word *forgive* n carried on. after prelim1, i looked down my flat. i juz want to jump down n end everything. i really do...

//Brandon struck at 12:41 PM\\

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Oct 20th: finally finished composing the English version of Jay Chou's An Jing. tis song is specially made 4 every guys who are disappointed n lost in their luv life, to tell them tt even though it's is hard to let go of her, b strong, b tough, juz release ur hand n wish her all the best. there is no point getting heartbroken, she wun feel ur despair. so an advice: get up, look up n continue in ur journey thru life. i named tis song, Dream. Tis is a sad story abt a guy who tot he had found his true love, oni 4 his gf to confess the truth to him when he called her home one night. his feelings after tt night was expressed throughout tis song.

Verse:
It is the first day since i've called to ur home.
I'm stuck in my bedroom, thinking of what u've said...
I thought that last night was just as ordinary
I yearn for ur sweet voice, but i heard otherwise...
U said that u're stressed up when u're with me...
Sometimes u feel like crying, i don't believe...
During ur lone sorrowness u've found ur dream man...
I cannot believe it's not me...
Pre-Chorus 1
Why never said so last time?
Why deceive me for so long?
Why didn't u tell me u had never liked me?
U said that u didn't want to
hurt me by saying all those
U didn't possess enough of
courage to make all things clear.
Chorus
It was the end of our dream.
It is the start of my life.
It is the beginning of life without ur voice.
U know how much it hurts me
just to let go of u
I'll try to forget u
just because my love is so deep...
Pre-Chorus 2
No matter how hard i try,
ur image's still in my mind.
It really pierce my heart to just forget 'bout u...
I can find no replacement,
nor can i find a medicine,
for the despair i've gotten
when u walked out of my life...

//Brandon struck at 12:10 PM\\

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

i wonder sometimes wad is needed for me to feel anger n frustration, cos i juz feel numb at things tt pple wld get furious. mayb wo hen kan de kai ba... or mayb too much linkin park songs makes me feel tt these things r juz too insignificant 4 me to kill some impt brain cells. but of cos i feel damn damn super unfair n confused over things lyk "wow wad's his problem?" "wow wad's the big deal to make him react liddat?", thus very often i end up being the punchin bag 4 some pple.... chees... mayb i juz look lyk a punchin bag *nt funni* juz gimme a break, hence tis blog emerged. tis bolg shld, n will b the punchin bag of a poor punchin bag... *confused* dun wooorry i'm too.... actually tis is juz ventin bucketloads of frustrations wellin up in me, so any visitors pls bear wif it ar...

verse of the day:
"GO away! u try to take the best of me..."

//Brandon struck at 7:14 PM\\