//...strike!...\\

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Errrr most probably 75% of S'pore chineses who got a blog will have this heading *bleah* aiyo anyway CNY exactly 1 month after my birthday, somehow don't have that excited mood, don't know why...

Whoah, 1 week never post anything, how did i spend this 1 week worth of time? Got a cross country on last Wednesday, surprisingly i felt ok after running like... 4.8km? OK benjamin will beg to differ, 'cos he finished his Milo long before i finished the run but i good friend lah, ran alongside MoMo, hamepered by tight hamstring and stitch *where's lilo* ... Then went class outing, like wth? Only 6 people went through the whole thing, including me but haix expected it anyway...

Oh my my motivation to write a longer entry seems to grow lesser and lesser, but i wont give up writing more entries in this blog man; this webby went through hard times alongside with me man, cannot be dishonourable to pang seh 'fren' lah hor? Haha....

//Brandon struck at 12:05 AM\\

Monday, January 23, 2006

Ehh dont know what to put for the title so i've put in some of the crappy stuffs i can remember... Haha sky high and ceiling white indeed. Things start to go smoothly now, for start can click with class at last... Well not really that well yet but i think it can be better, see how on the possible class outing on wednesday after cross country, i mean WALK country. At last i'm starting to feel the warmth of being in S72, a feeling sorely lacking last year; you know the feeling like when you hear " YOU ARE ACCEPTED " the sense of......... Geez i dont know the exact word man, but still.... Happy

Only 1 eye sore remains. The TIC of SF... Damn, i thought it's worth a nation's celebration when last year i heard he's leaving but NO godamnit he's STILL around. I've ran out of words to describe him man, especially after the ridiculous incident on Friday...

Background unclear, just that a girl from water polo had a rift with him. Got too upset and ran off, after HE ask an 'innocent' question. Basket, how 'innocent' his question can be man, must be some super duper moral insulting questions bah.... After a delay of close to 30minutes, he dragged us back after we left to go around the Potong Pasir estate to find them. Walau they already at Toa Payoh long ago, waste our time to find them... The excuse for asking us to find? ACCOUNTABILITY omg can you believe it? It's like asking us to wipe his ass after shitting just to account for the fact that his pants will not get dirty !!!! Damn, he thinks he's God, but he's just another dog stuck to his principles....

Man, i think he still have some of my respect, if not i wont be writing about him or give a heck about him. Seriously, i think he is an okay man, just that he's hopelessly stuck to his outdated principles of life and the way of doing things that it pisses us off. Please man YOU for God's sake CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE!!!! STOP EXPECTING US TO RESPECT YOU WITHOUT YOU EVEN GOING ABOUT GAINING IT MAN!!!! WE HAVE ALREADY SHOWN YOU ENOUGH RESPECT BUT IN THE END?! YOU STILL TREAT US LIKE DOGS, DDDOOOOOGGGGSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU, NOT US, WILL BE THE ULTIMATE CAUSE FOR THE FALL OF SF LAHH BASKET DONT YOU GET IT YOU ! @ # $ % ^ & * & ^ % $ # @ ! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

grrrrr......

//Brandon struck at 7:29 PM\\

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Whoah damn tired...

Today ran 11 rounds, walau eh damn tired....

Basket lah, PE don't let us play games, kept doing those conditioning stuffs, damn tired....

Sian, NS coming soo and i don't want to go PTP for anyone's sake, damn tired....

How to balance 1 AO subject, 2CCAs, 3 A'level subjects, 4-5 pull-ups, 6 stations to get at least a silver, damn tired...

Wonder how i managed to come here and blog, damn tired....

Damn tired.....

//Brandon struck at 8:32 PM\\

Sunday, January 15, 2006

I remember not too long ago when i'm walking to Potong Pasir MRT station 'cos i rushing back to mshs to oversee the CCA Maze. It was a wet wet week; downpours everyday here and there. I was at the midway between the Broadway food centre and the station, the pathway through a big big grasspatch, or should i say 'field'... It was so totally flooded, it looked like a padi field up close.

It was just a spilt-second image, but it's locked up for quite some time in my mind and provided me with food for thought. Shucks, i'm becoming another mr lim, basket... Anyway while walking on the pathway and looking downwards -it became a habit to look low while walking- i noticed something amist the padi field. Tadpoles, hundreds of them, black little dots scurrying around in the flooded field. Some muddle-headed frogs must have mistaken the flooded field for a swamp or marsh and laid their spawns there, nice choice there froggy... I stared at the tadpoles while walking for a few seconds; they dont look big to me, might be hatched just a few days ago. After all, the monsoon season started not too long ago, so the field couldn't have flooded so heavily anyway.

Which brings me back to present. It had not rained heavily for two whole days, and it's quite hot. Is the padi-field still around? What will happen to those tadpoles trapped in the field? When all the water evaporates, how are they going to survive? Are they going to die off just like that? Does anyone know of thier plight? I wish i can do something about it, but everybody's gonna call me a crazy kid. I loved the wildlife since young, after being fascinated by all the wildlife documentaries i've watched on Channel 12 (now Central) and the SCV channels. I wanted to be on TV like Steve Irwin and Jeff Corwin to promote facts about the wildlife and spread the message around, which is to protect Mother Earth. Too bad, these kind of jobs wont earn you a living in S'pore, except maybe working in the zoo which ok doesn't attracts me much either.

Somethimes i feel like one of the tadpoles stuck in that padi-field. Difficult circumstances surround me; it threatens to destroy my life and take me out of this world. Mother Nature created the monsoon seasons, will she do something to help thesse tadpoles out? Not that i know...

//Brandon struck at 10:06 PM\\

Friday, January 13, 2006

Dear BEC Participant

Congratulations! I am please to inform you that you passed the BEC exam scoring 76% to 88%.
Collection of certificate will be advised at a later date.

You may now proceed to the AIC or FIC course. For more information on the course schedule, please visit our website at www.ssc.gov.sg/sportsacademy/exfit Regards Sports Academy"

Man i thought i would never see this message in my entire life but the fact is i did, after agreeing to pay 50bucks for the retest. Only 2 things unhappy about this retest: firstly it's 50 BUCKS MAN!! CAN GO TOILET 500 TIMES LEH!!! secondly, it is the EXACT SAME paper as the first test. This pissed me off; 50bucks for retaking the same paper?! Basket bloody hell...

Anyway these few days really damn tired and sian, trying my best to catch up with tutorials and for once, concentrate fully on lectures... Fitness really sucked, 'cos it always kept me thinking and anticipating any troubles that are coming up, maybe i do really have a problem somewhere. Just now chatted with Johnny *thx bro leave a whisper when u see this haha* , like benjamin he said all the stuffs that really caught me off-guarded.. You know, those encouraging words that aims to push me on with this life, well all i can say is thx thx thx a million bah, hope that i can heed your advice to relax...

Relax... Maybe i have too strong a view on life; perharps life hasn't been so bad, perharps life has been kind to me, perharps life cannot be better enough... Oh well, i too tired to carry on anyway..

Tired to carry on Writing, not Living

//Brandon struck at 8:40 PM\\

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Yea yea I'm fast revering back to the ultra negative B-brandon loser-LiMing again, damn... Doesn't help when all the bloody subject tutors talk as if we take only that damn bloody subject. All talks about going home to revise constantly so that we can survive the big A, goddamnit... Not sure how to handle this man, especially with all the workload from both SJ and Fitness. Freak, i wouldn't mind spending time in St.John without getting any recognition; my loyalty lies there, not Fitness. I wouldn't exchange all the efforts and time I need to spend for the next 6 months on Fitness for a freaking testimonial which all but useless if I flunk my A's... Damn, getting more and more demoralised as each day passes...

Sometimes i do wonder what role i played in S72. At times i felt like nobody, others i felt welcomed by everyone. Maybe i really need to open up but man oh man, this year 2006 will be 1 hell of a struggle for me and i don't even know how to go about tackling it... Trying to get my fitness level back on track after months of inactiveness, but hell fuking Fitness has to eat up our time on working out by asking us to plan really useless stuffs.. Why did i end up in SA? Not that i'm regretting, but things can get better, won't they? Sigh...

What's the image i portray to everyone? Seems like alot though.. From shy to ultimate lameness, I have shown almost every faces known to mankind, yet i still doesn't possess an unique characteristic that i can be proud of.. I mean, some achievements maybe? I'm lousy in sports, even worse in fitness, sucked in socialising with my class, bad in finding old friends to catch up with old times, mediocre in academic (so what if i'm a 9-pointer?), easily addicted to bad habits such as laziness and addiction to games, so sucky in playing DotA cos everytime kena owned like shit and i still talked like a pro at school, an ugly appearance to start with phobia in swimming, very very very low determination... Man i sometime really feel like restarting this whole life..

Just like today's GP lesson for example, played a game that speaks of something like reincarnation.. I'm a free-thinker, but i do believe in stuffs like the afterlife and so on, so reincarnation isn't a strange unacceptable topic to me.. But if it really exist, man do i want to go through it and get a new life, maybe a better one.. Not that i didn't put in the efforts to improve myself, but time is always not by my side, or something out of sudden would come up and destroy everything.. Grrr argh wth is happening man? Guess i'm still overwhelmed by last year's misadventures and the challenges of the new year...

I'll still always put on a strong mask, to prevent anyone from seeing cracks...

//Brandon struck at 7:39 PM\\

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

New year, new campus, but same ol' SA 05S72... Nobody's changed, in terms of character, only perharps hairstyle... wah today very tiring, chiong all the way to kallang stadium to take that stupid bec test, damn cost me 50 bucks... I think fail again, same paper and i dunno where's my mistake... Anyway back to school, it's uneventful as usual, i dont know what to say to the classmates man, hearing all those usual moans and groans about no class outings... yea yea ok let me tell you all a story...

"This is a story about four people: Everybody, Somebody, Anybody and Nobody.There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it but Nobody did it.Somebody got angry with that, cause it was Everybody's job.Everybody thought Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it.It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody have done.

What a mouthful of words. Isn’t this story relevant to all of us? Oftentimes, we assume that a “somebody” should do something, and yet when a third person completed the job much less to our satisfaction, we begin finger pointing at each other for the job done. The best solution would be to always ask when in doubt. Clarify where as far possible."

you want a class outing, just do it; organise one... Maybe the response isn't that great but nobody goes about finding out why. Basically, what the guys in S72 likes to do is totally totally TOTALLY different from what the girls like, hence the response... Man, miss my cj class, 'cause everyone is so 'on', we would enjoy every outing we have... Sadly, SA seems mugger to me... sad.....

//Brandon struck at 9:41 PM\\