//...strike!...\\

Friday, August 21, 2009

It's as what the title suggest, so just carry on reading with a pinch of salt.. No offence but dont come throw slippers at me just 'cos i'm too emo; as a matter of fact it is part of my life already and also a driving force to uphold my life motto, "keep on running"...

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As i reached the place for the safety video viewing, just basically a video on traffic accidents *gross*, i saw a fellow 'passer' in tears.. I guess he's too happy and he shed tears of joy and relief.. Which makes me thought back to the amount of tears i tried to hold back when i see the word 'passed' in bold and caps lock in the test slip...

Are they tears of joy? definitely yes but not exactly...

Tears of regret? Not exactly but definitely yes

I realised, when my bro got his license he was under strict probation by my father... Now its my turn and my bro most probably will be taking over his role as a strict probator.. i sure rue the missed chance of being able to drive my whole family around in a car proudly with a hard-earned license but this aint gonna happen anymore; its just regretful i have so many unfulfilled wishes in my life and i'm still not yet 21 at all... And i remember how unusually calm i am when i'm taking the test today, unlike the first time when i was really a ganjiong spider with 8 legs all tangled up and i flunked it.. the calmness is something like when someone familiar and close to you are sitting right beside u when u driving, giving you a sense of assurance and a even greater effort in making sure you drive carefully.. i dont know how to explain exactly why, but when i reached home and took off my jeans,

i realised,

it was the pair of korean jeans i bought during my last ever full family holiday in 2006...

i am in no religion, 'cos i only see reasons and (pardon me) not God.. But there should be a reason why it was raining so heavily during my test and somehow cleared up almost at the time when i passed it.. the mystery of the unusual sense of calmness suddenly became clearer, if not solved.. He will be always in my heart and be there whenever i need strength... I was reminded of my reasons for learning driving and definitely its not solely for myself...

thx pa, i passed driving le..

//Brandon struck at 4:33 PM\\

Sunday, August 16, 2009

i survived!! haha enjoyable but end up with nasty abrasions instead of my expected muscle aches and becoming 'lame'... oh wells i might be able to walk normally tmw, i hope lol

oh man i'm feeling shagged again, *faints back to bed*

//Brandon struck at 4:20 PM\\

Saturday, August 15, 2009

AHM...

Some may think its unlucky to talk about last words or anything, but i couldnt think of a more crucial timing to other than the eve of a running event, ie marathons or half marathons or even just a 10km fun run.. I dont know if its just me, but i cant help but notice a spike in the number of sudden deaths in recent years, its kinda scary if it really happens near you, and of course for my situation i dont want history to repeat itself again, so yeah...

but then, i dont know what to write either! lol... then maybe instead of talking about this (if it really happens) short life, i would rather talk about thanking all the people who have made an impact in my (again if it really happens) short life...

My family,
My few buddies and good frens that i can die for,
My kindergarden school mates whom i've lost contact with,
My marist frens from primary to secondary,
My CJC 1st 3 months frens,
My SAJC classmates and fitness people,
My BMT Ninja platoon mates,
My 30sce frens
All my teachers, school and tuition
and last but not least NUS frens from Excalibur and Mario, both freshies and seniors

and of course, , thank you (your name)for magnanimously treated me as a sincere friend and for making an impact on my life

All the way for AHM!! keep on running

//Brandon struck at 10:18 PM\\

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Actually i dont know why i signed up for teamnus floorball trials... maybe it was the burning desire to represent school in a sports, after all after nus i dont think there will be any chance to do these kind of stuffs again anymore... So why not try to achieve all this as a freshman?

But the results today was somewhat numb, from the numerous times of experiencing the same feeling human beings can feel pretty normal already when the emotion strikes... Yes, it's disappointment... Cant calculate how many times i was disappointed and unhappy over missed chances in life... Although this time round it was a talentless me trying to get in into teamnus and quite obviously failed badly, the sense of failure and dejection just seeps in nonetheless..

and school term is merciless on freshmen whose brains are dumb-ified by the army, plus learning a totally new language in uni is not fun and easy at all... nope its not some foreign languages but Programming... sian where's all my determination when i chose this course even though i knew it will not be an easy one to take?

shall not frown over it anymore, 就算失望，也不可以绝望

for the so many people in my life, family and friends, keep on running dude

keep on running

//Brandon struck at 11:17 PM\\

Sunday, August 02, 2009

Alamak i just realised its august already, and its the 2nd day! lol...

Finally after such a long wait uni's starting; i cant really say i'm looking forward, neither can i say i'm dreading it.. It's really just a somewhere-here-or-there kind of feeling, i guess for almost the whole of the aspects of life most of us, if not all, carry this feelings when we are about to face it.. The truth is i dont know what really lies ahead, and it doesnt helps that its a totally new course in nus and so many cock-ups have occured, no nerves had been calmed down in the buidling up to the start of school.. And unresolved questions and problems persisted as the start of school looms towards us..

Too bad the FOW camp clashes with the round 1C, the 'bidding breaks' in between the activities and the headaches from the bidding in the comp lab are sucky to the max, and unfortunately it really takes out most of the fun in the camp (lol talking about the fun, the bandana with the M really looks like the cross between samsui woman and MOS burger worker, no offence :P) And really mental shagness wins hands down to physical shagness... Castello is physically shagged from the activities and lack of sleep, but this FOW feels like 3 Castellos back to back, can die u know hahah.. Blog halfway and felt sleepy zzz

a solid post next time, promise lol

//Brandon struck at 12:58 AM\\