//...strike!...\\

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

haha i didnt know my date of enlistment can get googled lolx... but not bad lah got to know someone new haha, that was nice... i tink i must shed my inferior personality, cos i reckon' i wont be able to survive inside xD

the building up to the day tmw isnt really exciting, but neither was it boring... friday the 1st day w/o work i stayed at home and mahjonged with my family... Saturday... go ntu n nus open house with qitang, saw lots of familar faces, at night go auntie house drink wine play mahjong, den quarrel with natty and lost 40bucks on the table :S sunday... well go collect my army specs and tried patching up with natty... go grandma house for dinner...

first my uncle gave me angpow, whic was abit surprising cos he nvr give my bro 2 yrs ago, and my mum and anties alwaes call him a miser, but wow the angpow inside quite alot money leh... then my grandparents gave me another 2 angpows for good luck, which is oso unexpected, but thx anw... den my 2nd auntie tried shoving 50bucks into my hands, which almost brought tears into my eyes, cos since young living in my grandma house beside my grandparents, my 2nd n 3rd aunts r the next closest people i can relate to, not even my parents at tt time... so to sacrifice their lifelong commitment of getting married in order for me to grow up healthily, it is the greatest debt i could have ever made in my life so far... adding to the fact tt she doesnt earn alot, while my 3rd auntie spent quite alot on me n my bro, i just cant accept this 50bucks at all....

mon... went out wif kun and the auntie users of the gym tt i worked in, actually no lah they r not that old oso, but still older than us... they treated us to sakura, lyk walau my 1st time inside sakura, so swakoo.. it's a buffet, 22bucks n u eat as much as u can sia haha *shit i'm growing fatter now...* went out until 12+ den came back...

tues... went out wif natty to watch just follow law... haha i can relate so much things to the movie cos i did work in a public sector b4 as a temp, the emailing parts and the arrows and the unspoken rules of the offices... manx tt's how i lost my job lolx... anw ate dinner wif natty and sent her home... abit sad n bu she de la, but in the end i still managed to let go and took the yet familair long route home...

NS... a whole new chapter of life, akin to the first day to sch, first exam, first major exam... i heard it's easy to become a very negative person, which spells quite bad news to me... but i muz hold on, for 2 yrs will pass quickly!

TO NS !!!

//Brandon struck at 11:18 AM\\

Sunday, March 11, 2007

i'm quite sick of being doubted at...

my sincerity,
my pride,
my everything
different people fill it with different amount of doubts...

really, i know i may not be the best person around, but at least dont doubt me, i'm as real as it can be... if i hate u, u can see it all over my face... if i love u, u can see it all over my face... somehow to me reality is that simple, yet i'm just sick on lack of trust people shown on me... if only i can say 'dunno' to every problem i face rite now...

ARGHHHHH!! how m i going to get enlisted in this state?

//Brandon struck at 12:13 AM\\

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

ABB C6 for gp, A2 for chinese...

c'mon brando C'MON!! IT'S AN OK RESULT!! but somehow i still cant convince myself...

*snap out of it*

todae's a day full of jokes manz, frm the morning i read the newspaper about the MPs losing their patience over our neighbours' idiocracy.. wad? m'sia blaming us for the floods in johor cos of our reclamation projects? n indo banning sand import cos they dont like us? ah bladdy hell there are worse jokes than my A'lvl results *oh no here i go again....*

and den when i go downstairs to buy the newspaper a granny having difficulty walking asked me to help her to the coffeeshop, which is no big deal until she offered 2 DOLLARS for me to send her there =_= aww c'mon brando, r u that CHEAP?! no offence to the granny (i doubt she reads blogs xD) but can hear her muttering all those god bless ur life, ur results and all those thingys in hokkien, i wondered wad wld happen if i ignored her... god bash my life, my results etc? manx, there are worse jokes than my A'lvl results *oh sheeeet*

n den my home shook. literally! i thought i played too much com when the whole room just shoke n shoke n shoke... wow but u noe wads next? my beloved sajc 5mins away frm me actually evacuated the whole sch and ask them go home! wow! c'mon manz it's no big deal, the buildings r lyk the youngest n newest there, n u scared the holy buildings collaspe?? aww c'mon, there are worse jokes than my A'lvl results ... *argh*

//Brandon struck at 9:01 PM\\

Friday, March 02, 2007

soon, 1430hrs the truth about the hard work in 1+ year will be revealed... frankly i dont know if i got slp yesterday or not, still wondering lots of what ifs... quite scary to realise that for this a'level i have everything to lose but literally nothing to gain.. n somehow i wonder, is my motive for living just to please everyone and to meet their expectations, compromising with them in the process?

//Brandon struck at 10:24 AM\\