//...strike!...\\

Sunday, July 26, 2009

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

//Brandon struck at 2:00 AM\\

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Finally finished attending the 3rd birthday in 3 days, this is shagged man lol...

QT's departure from SG to aussie land has arrived, so fast.. While its kinda sad for one of my best buddies to leave for further studies, he will be back in november so ok i will make a note on the day in Nov once i know the exact date :D Its 10 years since i've known him, which is pretty long actually since we are only 21 year-old kids.. Such a long time full of joys and laughter and suddenly he will be missing much of the next 3-4 years in SG.. And ct popped up a question on whether it was worth the effort, since i was enthusiastically helping out in organising his chalet and the only friend to stay throughout his 3D2N chalet.. I didnt have any second thoughts and replied "Yes.." He is one of the best buddies i can ever made in my life and being me, someone whom can form pretty strong friendships but are unable to maintain most of it, having a best buddy is something very rare for me and i dont think i would wanna regret losing it... No matter what others may say or criticise, they would never understand the special bonds i formed with the few best buddies i ever have in my life.. Once bitten twice shy, i wouldnt want to feel the pain and regret after losing something important again in my whole life....

I guess its great to see all the fitness people again after so long at kevin's birthday party, too bad it ended too early :X oh yeah and the juniors also, though only 3 came.. And eh kevin puked after the party, lol paiseh man... After that me ben yx zc and josh went out to bedok area for supper and some nice long chat about the 'good' old days in SAJC; its kinda nostalgic to bring back all the memories and had a great laugh over all the funny stuffs... From our CCAs to studies to results to army to uni orientation camps to relationships, it was actually a very good catch-up with all the dudes that i survived with during the harsh JC days in SA.. As we prepare to move on to our next stage of life who knows how often we are able to meet up in the future, but i guess our short but colourful friendships will be staying for long...

Actually, i didnt have any regrets over anything in the relationship, only the manner that it was ended in a very forced situation and the events that followed almost directly after... It was a nightmare that haunts me every now and then but its the only motivation to keep me strong and moving...

//Brandon struck at 1:56 AM\\

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

what is this?

what is this familiar feeling, the frustrations of meeting setbacks which increases with every effort to get back to your feet and tries to move forward, only to fall right down again..

the NCO years, JC results, BMT, driving, and now this..

why the fall is hardest when the more you are trying your best to meet expectations, only to fail?

troubles just dont happen alone; they come in bunch

and even my comp is throwing tantrum at its owner, really

i guess i wont be online that often for awhile =/

//Brandon struck at 2:12 PM\\

Monday, July 13, 2009

shall post a solid concrete one next time, but Linkin Park never fails to strike a chord within me with their songs... They are just pure awesome in my opinion hahah

New Divide - Linkin Park
I remembered black skies
the lightning all around me
I remembered each flash
as time began to blur
Like a startling sign
that fate had finally found me
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
to prove me wrong
to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross
the distance in your eyes
Give me reason
to fill this hole
connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight
but memories left abandoned
There was nowhere to hide
the ashes fell like snow
And the ground caved in
between where we were standing
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
to prove me wrong
to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Across this new divide

In every loss
in every lie
In every truth that you’d deny
And each regret
and each goodbye
was a mistake too great to hide
And your voice was all I heard
That I get what I deserve

So give me reason
to prove me wrong
to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
Give me reason
to fill this hole
connect the space between
Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies
Across this new divide

//Brandon struck at 9:44 PM\\

Friday, July 03, 2009

Everyone should have read it somewhere, be it newspaper column or magazine or even horoscopes.. Yeah that quote which asks us to do something different from our daily routines, be it an extra flight of steps, skipping a few bus stops through walking or even trying out a new breakfast set from the usual bread-and-butter..

Today i tried something more hectic, somewhat radical changes to the daily routine..

1) 6 hours of sleep
ok i guess i've slept too much for the past 2 days, sick in bed.. Wednesday was the scariest day by far; who would have thought a diarrhoea will cause you fever, a great confusion within your head, and you ends up shivering in cold sweat on your bed having weird dreams over and over again.. Yeah thats how i spent my wednesday afternoon alone at home.. Not that it's something to complain, its just that it serves as a good reminder how important health is, and the opportunity costs to it (i had to skip an interview whose job earns $10/hr, and an outing with qt to buy his birthday celebration) sian to the max, like what ken say i really need more luck zzzz...

2) Tried doing 3 things in 1 go
This is actually rather hectic; first i load clothes into my washing machine and let it do its job, so maybe i had around 30+ minutes before its ready.. Then i tried eating breakfast, a light one with 2 slices of bread and coffee, while cooking lunch! Lol thats when i wished i was an octopus hahah.. Really an interesting time when i multi-task like crazy.. Stirring porridge while munching my bread away, cutting cabbages while drinking coffee in between, ensuring the porridge dont get burnt while i putting out the laundry and finally settling down for a somewhat breakfast part 2, the remainder for lunch later after i finish more chores..

3) Planning my schedule ahead
Alrights this cannot be considered as a radical change 'cos i'm almost always in the planning mode, though sometimes its called 'daydreaming' hahah... Right now i taking a break from breakfast part 2, then i guess maybe finishing up 2 more chores before settling down for lunch proper, and then cleaning up and going to the library to return and borrow books.. Should be meeting up with friends for dinner i guess, not before buying a screen protector for ken's gf.. Hmmm a day well spent and hopefully smoothly executed..

4) The sudden brainwave
As i was making myself busy with multi-task this morning, i had this sudden lightbulb blinking up in my head.. Like most part of life, isnt it really about doing laundry, eating breakfast, cooking lunch all at the same time? What i mean is at no point in life are we solely devoted to doing a burden-laden task, be it working, household chores, stuffs that we feel stressed and forced doing it and are rather unhappy with it.. For example when i'm eating breakfast, i was wishing someone could have been there helping me to look out for the porridge or loading the washing machine.. Its similar in life that we are always wishing people around us would offer their helping hands and share our burdens, but how many times do we actually request sincerely for it? It might have been human nature or simply the stupid word 'pride'; but most of the time we would just swallow it down and carry on doing.. Some may crumple from the stress of the burden; some blame the whole world for their plight when really they are refusing help and care most of the time, the 'strong outside but fragile inside' kind of people; but there are plenty who would just say, "If life gives me lemons, i will make lemonade!" or similar philosophies; they just keep on walking, believing that there's really a bright end at the tunnel ahead.. And i think from a bleach manga collection the 1 benefit i've gained from the numerous rereadings is that in times of crisis, the mutual support from everyone is very important.. Is there any advantages if we were to add in even more feelings of anger and hatred into the crisis?

Allow me 1 last time to gloat over my failed plan before ORD, but had it been successful i would have been working now, optimistically with a class3 license and really having much more fun than now... but then again, life's never about looking at the past but rather walking towards the future...

//Brandon struck at 12:18 PM\\