Friday, December 03, 2004
i m juz so sick of being criticised, being looked down, being condemned... the more i wanna prove myself, the messier i gotten myself into... damn it y cant tis world juz gimme a chance to prove my worth?
It's like a face that i hold inside, a face that awakes when i close my eyes, a face watches everytime i lie, a face that laughs everytime i fall
pple sees many sides of me, so many i sometimes dun understand who m i, wad m i, where i'm frm... some pple sees me as a happy-go-lucky lamer, others sees me as a deep-thinkin loner, some sees me as a crazy despo lunatic, others sees me as a criminal, some sees me as a sociable peacemaker,other sees me as a quiet shadow closin its door to the world... there is juz so many characters i painted myself as, i juz dunno who i really was!! i m juz so damn damn confused....
It's haunting how i cant seems to find myself again, my walls are closing in...
Shut up when i'm talkin to u!! everything u say to me takes me 1 step closer to the edge, n i'm about to break!!
even though i felt so many wrongs already in my short life, i juz used the word *forgive* n carried on. after prelim1, i looked down my flat. i juz want to jump down n end everything. i really do...
//Brandon struck at
12:41 PM\\