//...strike!...\\

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Next week.... GP paper and Chinese AO, oh no how to study for them... Not really started mugging man, since I guess after so many happenings around these few months I don't really have the right mindset to start my revisions on 6 subjects *groans*

Seems like I've lost my inner confidence and the calm peace in my mind... Not that I always appear to be a very confident person in front of my classmates, but I used to have the I-know-I-can-do-it mindset as my confidence's backing, and my trusty peace in mind allows me to concentrate fully in whatever I'm doing. However lately I just can't seem to find these two buddies of mine. I lose my focus as easy as ABC123. I now have a I-cant-do-it-and-I-wont-make-it mindset. Oh No Where are they? Where are they when I need them in this critical point of this year? I think exsupt might want to encourage me to talk to close friends like the SJ officers if I have any problem, it was a very heartening advice, thanks... But what will people think if I suddenly go towards them and say, "Hey, I've got a problem: I've lost my confidence..." ? Imagine one day in school when I suddenly walk up to my classmate, say Jamin or Benjamin or Fey Mun.... It would be a comical yet awkward sight, I think...

Maybe... I don't know, but when people ask me what's with me folding straw stars in cafe I would just reply, "For fun, lah..." I don't really know the reason myself. I learnt the way to fold from Derek, and I'm now like him, folding a star on every 2 or more straws I can get my hands on.... Maybe the straw stars are made to heal the damage within my soul, the damage caused by a virus called MiS-sU v1.5... Oh well for the promos...

//Brandon struck at 10:49 AM\\