//...strike!...\\

Thursday, December 15, 2005

Finally the nightmare is over, temporary; my body shudders at the thought of next year. 2 camps have passed and I'm a dead man walking, literally... I always hold my seniors in Fitness in awe 'cos I really admire them for their passion and spirits to this CCA. Maybe this batch of students, which is us, doesn't have that passion of theirs, and seriously it isn't anyone's fault. The Pearl system is down, CCA became nothing more than just clocking CIP hours and furthering your interests; as a method to destress some might say. I can still remember that time where we almost broke down in frustration and exhaustion after the seniors' passing out parade. I was the one who represented all of us on our views of Fitness, negative ones of course....

That feeling is coming back again, after yesterday's debrief by who else but him, HIM... Because of that camp 80% of our holidays are gone, wasted to the core. Yet, when everyone is praising us for our efforts and hard work he, HE, has to say that we are pitiful in the way we carried out this camp. "reasonably acceptable" is the other comment I could remember. Our hearts sank upon hearing that. Pitiful isn't the word to describle us, judging from the way each and everyone of us, the Dragon batch of Fitness, have done to this camp. I can proudly say that everyone of us, Zhengcai Benjamin Kevin Joshua Xukun Zilong Yunxiang Natalie Samuel Marcus and me, have done our best for this camp despite being the lowest intake in years. Demoralised, discouraged, anger, frustration, fatigue, shocked, these were our emotions after hearing his comments.

This camp isn't very well-done, all of us will admit, but it's not intentionally badly done. The misadventure in Day1 was our fault, we would gladly accept it. Day2 was worse, why the heck the canoeists' teachers took over the activities?! All our efforts to plan the activities had came to nought! It wasn't fair, you know why?? He used an activity which he spent about 1hour or so to plan to replace our teambuilding stations which we have spent so many time and effort in making it possible. Yet, lim allowed him to go ahead with the stupid concentration game phang planned, ignoring all our hard works before the camp.... All the talk about showing respect and think about others?? Bullshit! _l_ I've lost all respect to him now...

I think Eric and maybe ghim kui will see this posting, but I don't care now. I just want to vent my frustrations. So be it if the school catch me for insulting teachers, I'm already feeling numb over all the events in this holidays; fitness, stjohn, family, friends... Need a good rest and recharge my batteries. Hope the rest going for the retreat enjoy themselves, although I think lim's definition of enjoyment is totally different from us...

//Brandon struck at 12:52 PM\\