//...strike!...\\

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Life's a mess, just when i thought it had finally come back on rail, my parents HAD to quarrel... Yea yea i dont even know why, just that i found myself in the middle of a cold war after waking up from an afternoon nap. You know how frustrating it is? The whole house was already messed up by all the events in the past few years and yet they had to have a bust-up. One always wanted to live the way we did before all these incidents, the another die die wont accept her fate and always aimming to improve. When these two stubborn cocks are on loggerheads, damn, i dont give a damn anyway, i've had enough...

Dont know what's troubling me these days, i kept having this premonition that something REAL bad will happen, but so far aside from home everything is ok for me, 'cos i can find an explanation for all the setbacks so far. Maths test ultra difficult? Admittingly i never study loh. Crappy hairstyle? Fine, my hair's never nice-looking anyway... Just got back physics class test, got a big shock that i did well in my class. Woohoo! But dont feel very happy though. Strangely, after the weekend nightmare in mahjong my energy seemed sapped. No energy to do tutorials, no energy to engage in fitness stuffs, no energy to go back to SJ to help out, i think all the negativities are returning soon, wth.... Couldnt sleep at night, fully wide awake, damn sleepy at the break of dawn. Man, wth is happening around me?

Who can ever understand the stress of being the breadwinner? Who can ever understand the frustration of a man being confined at home doing nothing but watching TV, doing housework and preparing all the meals? Who can ever understand.... i dont know, maybe all these things are happening 'cos it's all my damn fault; it's the only reason since i ever existed in this world, i brought in all the problems, i'm the source of all troubles... i really cant hang on any much longer man, with all these problems dragging me down, and my damn stupid com had to crash in front of me *i using my aunt's laptop* basket....

Linkin Park's "One Step Closer"

I cannot take this anymore....
I'm saying everything I've said before...
All these words they make no sense
I find bliss in ignorance
Less I hear the less you say
but you'll find that out anyway...

Just like before.......

Everything you've said to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
and I'm about to break
I need a little room to breather
'cos I'm one step closer to the edge
and I'm about to break.....

//Brandon struck at 1:38 PM\\