//...strike!...\\

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Today's V'day...

Came back home straight away get scolded by mom, spoil my day...

Another lousy V'day, went out with, like, 5 guys? :S

Another attempt of class outing.... failed, haix when can we have a successful one?!

Suddenly today during class i felt sad, dont know why. I think i still rueing over the lost chance last year... Man, i really felt like rushing all the way back to whitley road to see her for once and say everything i want her to know. Yet i'm always held back by reality; the fact that i'm so messed up in everything i do and i'm struggling to come in terms of the amount of stress, you know how difficult it is to just open my mouth to say? I dont really know man... If only i had the courage to take the initiative... only hope she can understand and forgive for the insensitiveness last year... Today jo-N tried passing her V'day present, which is a cricket ball, but i missed it totally *ok partly cos u threw it too short a range*. It kinda reminded me of how things ended on her b'day, the way i missed the point totally... What i feel is that somehow i always get this feeling that i'm looking for a gf solely for the sake of having one, which obviously is immoral and very wrong... i guess my first date would only come when i get back my long-lost self esteem and confidence, as well as a maturity worthy of the one i like... til that day come....

//Brandon struck at 2:15 PM\\