//...strike!...\\

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Ever tried making a promise and breaking it just an hour later? Looking at the time of this post should be an obvious reason. After getting back chem MCQ i decided that man, i should really buck up, it's now or never! No more ponning of lectures or skipping tutorials! That promise was broken in just 1 hour.

And i skipped maths lecture for a very stupid reason; i was lost for words when johnny asked me why i going home. Who on earth will believe i went home just to do laundry?! They will certainly laugh their asses out man! But the truth remains, no one is at home settling the mounting amount of laundry to be done. Dad went back to GH again to be under observation, which means i'm back to being a house-son again. Heavens is playing a joke on me man, the sky instantly turned dark as soon as i activated my washing machine. WTF!! Please please stop toying with my thoughts i really cannot take anymore cruel jokes like this...

Rewinding back, black hobbit ask me whether he should drop any subjects after getting back his physics, which wasnt really well-done. How am i going to answer? For the whole of 2005 i had to handle 4As, 2 AOs, 2 CCAs and a chaotic home, sometimes i really wonder how i managed to get by but i did it anyway... Dropping econs wasnt an easy choice, i had to carefully weigh the outcomes of it and thought about it for quite some time. 2 CCAs, which i irresponsibly dropped 1, werent that easy to balance too, especially with fitness. The choice is ultimately lying in your own hands; we all have to face whatever consequences bravely i guess...

Mdm lee scolded us for a good 37minutes during today tutorial, which started because our results as a class are poor. 1 thing i dont agree with her, so what if we are S72?! So what if we are the second best in Loy Fatt house, which is generally an unrecognised fact among students like us? S72 is just... well S72 right? Nobody thinks S72 as some special class or what, it's just another class that make up the numbers in LF house, that's all. All the talks about S71 being the best and S72 being second best can all be summarised into 1 word: crap... If we do not perform well the only people we let down are the ourselves, teachers (not including maths lecturers, they really sucked), our families and all the people who had faith on us doing well. For some, God. We dont let down the name of our class, damnit...

This morning finished the movie "Princess Mononoke" as a GP lesson, i must say it is a very damn nice movie. I think i can enjoy myself in GP lessons nowadays as the topic is Environmental issues, which has always been my strong point. My dream job is to be a famous environmentalist, a nature protector who spreads words about the importance of Mother Nature itself and the need to protect it. Like how Christians spread the word of God by travelling all around, i want to be like Steve Irwin or Jeff Corwin who are regulars in Animal Planet channel, putting their lives at risk to get near dangerous animals but yet stressing everytime the importance of conserving the environment. However the harsh truth remains: in a practical and pragmatic society like Singapore, you wont survive if you have dreams like these, 'cos in the end they will ultimately be worthless "day-dreams"...

//Brandon struck at 1:33 PM\\