//...strike!...\\

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

After leaving quite a few cobwebs around here, yep i'm back with alot of significant events to blog about, or in jinyan's term, bitch about....

Hmm where should i start? Maybe from last saturday, during the debrief after the night cycling dry run. What a battle of tongues between ZC and Lim manx! Lim die die also stood stoutly by his principles, which admittedly is abit outdated and doesn't make sense, while ZC bulldozed his way to the top with a typical teenager's angst-filled emotion and rebellion, but at least it is logical *ok i'm biased*. Damn, i hate it whenever i see Lim losing the battle and kept quiet, staring to space and waiting for anyone to reinforce him. Ms Lee then stood up for him, in which keeping quiet became everyone's response. No matter what the fitness people said about Ms lee being fake or back-stabber or whatever shit, i hold her in very very very high regards, 'cos solely she is til now the most delicated TIC i've worked with so far. SFC got 4 teachers leh!! Yet lim had to stick to them almost all the time, only attaching to us in wrong moments and making us more dulan. Sports club only about 2 or 3, yet Ms lee put in so much so much efforts into fitness. See the difference?

Had not much memory of what happened on monday, just that the whole class seemed abit dead to me. Ok loh i also dead with them haha. Tuesday also not much to talk about, except that the guys go play lan after school at Paradiz. Actually wanted to go home mug chem phy gp maths *wth* and feeling very shagged from PE but in the end still went ahead with LAN. Returned home very tired but still managed to finish chem tutorial, whew...

I think today has the most things to blog about. I assure you, what people had an image of me will totally change after they (if they) finish reading this whole entry starting right now. Woke up quite late today, about 7:10am, i started to decide whether i should enter after 7:45am. After all, if i enter school between 7:30 to 7:45 i would get a DC, DC LEH!!! After 7:45 come school at most miss the first few periods of the day, so why not? Damn fcuked up right, this system? Doesn't make sense to me. Oh well, since when the events and decisions of SA ever make sense?! Mugged physics spa skill A at library with some guys, then went for chem tutorial. I can tell you, frankly today tutorial i think is quite wasted, mdm lee kept repeating about all the facts of life based on her personal experience. Except for her usual ultimate lame stuffs, nothing much to say also though. Which brings me to my next point, everytime hear weijing or johnny or marcel or imran talk about how they don't like mdm lee, i feel like coming up to her defence but nvm, friends what, why hurt feelings? But seriously, if she werent so dedicated to her job to a point where she lectured us like nobody's business, if she werent so concerned about our progress, if she were to give a i-dont-give-a-damn attitute, would they still like her? Maybe not i guess, mdm lee is another teacher i really admire, although some of the things she talked about that i would like to beg to differ. I mean, i really appreciate the efforts and spirits she put in to her job, which of course i can also name a few which i think give a heck about their jobs by the way they give lectures :-/

What i'm saying next will be controvesial stuffs, at least in SA. And yes, darryl if you are reading this, pls PLS prepare yourself. This is no personal attacks, just my genuine feelings and my helping hand as a friend to you but you cannot take it then nvm just click 'backspace' right now. As a friend it really irks me to see how the way it turned out in class, and you are one of our fellow guys *pls ar i not gay* i just really couldnt stand aside and see a tragedy waiting to unfold. After stumbling into your blog then i realise how worse the situation can become, manx. Really, seriuosly the only way i can offer my help is by telling, but you know i just cant bring myself to tell you face to face in front of everybody, nor can i send you an email which signals me as a hypocritical person. With every reader of this entry as my witnesses, i really wanna help, ya? Even though i'm in deep shit myself too, but i had to do something. There's no fire without smoke, isn't it? Actually we dont really hate you as a class, just that you dont seem to be yourself, always trying hard to get attention. My friend, we dont seek attention, we will ultimately get it somehow. You know, you reminds me so much about my past, man, when i was in a more harsh surrounding in MSHS primary. There i was humtumped so fiercely by my classmates, i was so traumatised i almost quit school. Had i did that, i wont be in SA now. It wont take a rocket scientist to realise that YOU YOURSELF ARE ULTIMATELY RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR OWN ACTIONS. The way people treat you is a direct response of what image you portray to them. Fortunately you still can reverse the situation, if you are willing to read until so far and accpet my comments as a concerned friend. The only way is not to apologise to everyone in class, if i were to do that i would rather jump down the building, nonono just be more self-conscious about your actions and get a hold on yourself. Dont always aim to be a very zai person and trying too hard to leave a positive impression on everyone, 'cos it will always back-fire. Be humble, and sometimes being less vocal is a very nice thing to do indeed. Dont talk too much unnecessarily crap, 'cos too much will be a irritant. But of course, being crappy can win you alot of friends. But ultimately, be yourself, really.... of course since you have quite a number of close friends i guess confiding to them or to you blog shouldnt be any problem. Dont be lazy, blog often so that we all can catch up with time to know more about you.

Kevin you are not safe. YES YOU THESMAN haha... PLS ar i dont feel proud being stuck in a situation like this, that was my feeling after you tell me that you had a some'sing $600 exam and you are more stressed than me. Thanks ar you made me feel as if i became a Superman overnight 'cos of what happened to my family. Seriously stress is everyday's stuffs man, people complain and complain about the stress they face but they still press on with life. I'm not saying i'm the most stressed person in the world, which of course i'm not, but i can admittedly handle stress quite well. At least i dont really show cracks on my face. Precisely that's why this blog exist, so that to ensure i can carry on without breaking down in front of everyone, and then the headlines will show "Student plunged to his death at his home outside SAJC". If not, this blog is dead about a year ago because the only person who know how to log in and write entries is already up there :) As ben said earlier, middle-income people cant afford to get sick, 'cos leaches like the gahmen and SGH or whatever will jump in and suck the hell out of you. WTF

Wonder what will people think of me now. Maybe the first thing will be the 'narcissitic expression' term we learnt in GP. Or maybe the brandon they know suddenly became a hypocrite, a sucker bent on getting sympathy votes. Maybe i became the most unpopular person in SA after this entry is published. Just maybe.

//Brandon struck at 7:11 PM\\