//...strike!...\\

Thursday, September 28, 2006

guess it's way due time i update again, lest my blog fall into other person's hand HAHA

prelims have finally came to a close, and so many milestones are formed...

First time get a grade over C for chemistry in my last ever exam in SAJC

first time get over 50 points in uni entry points

first time i felt i can be super careless, to a point that my A flew away in Maths

so marginal, 73 for maths, 65 for chem, 55 for phy, 50 for GP LOLx

Two weeks, just two more weeks, and everything will end,

no more classroom style lessons
no more ponning lectures
no more hanging around with friends and do stupid but funny stuffs in school
no more....

sigh, that's me, always dread both the induction and farewell. Fear induction, cos i am super shy to strangers and sometimes even friends. Fear farewell, cos i just couldnt accept that times had passed on so fast and i'm reliving all the special moments in the past one plus years. I just hate to end things, although i'm clear and very sure nothing lasts forever, but the heavy feelings sometimes are so uncontrollable, you really wish you had really cherish the times the class spent together.... These few days also quite subdued, dont know why but i seemed to lost my tongue whenever i hanged out with the class people...

today went on another of my wondering stint. yea, in case you dont know wondering and pondering is my favourtie hobby lol... Today the chapel saw momo jam and jeremy part of the band leading the (half-depleted) school, i thought,

"Wow, they must have been damn proud to lead the school in worshipping the God that they believe in..."

ok i'm not trying to convert, i'm contend staying free-thinker but i wondered, how many people in singapore can really do the things they want to, besides worshipping their God? Our lives are so controlled, our main point of living is just to earn as much money as possible so that our family can have a roof over their heads and well-fed, in order to do that we had to slog like crazy in our 12 years of education just to earn 2 worthless qualifications just for higher levels of study. I bet darryl is thinking of this LOL

Then at the end we watched 2 scenes from LOTR which is really wasting my precious time. Then came the turning point, our gp teacher came up and showed the overseas CIP footages in cambodia, which they went at i think holidays. What really set me wondering again was what she said after the video

"most of you will be complaining about the singapore education system (with an obvious glare at darryl XD) but look at the cambodian children and think about this before you start complaining..."

Maybe, just maybe, all of us have taken so many things for granted, be it education, friendship, food, water whatever, that we have lost the ability to cherish the values of everything that we have and forget about those who are suffering and yearning for it, day in day out.. Likewise, we only know the true value only after we have lost it or on the brink of losing it but miraclously got it back. If euthaneasia is legalised, i would have been an orphan a long time ago...

cherish the last 2 weeks of 05S72, for it will flow down the memory lanes of everyone and cease to exist anymore...

//Brandon struck at 8:57 PM\\

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

HAHA...bored bored lehz...
so cum here n intrude l0r....
life's so boring...
someone 2dae gt physics mock test...
so weird...
muz b c0s' we had bio mock tt time...
den the bio teacher n the phy teacher gt sumtink TINK...
den in the end oso gt phy mock ar...
HAHAHA...

i'm dyin' of bordem...
u c...this blog owner hasn't msged me for lyk tens and thousands of YEARS...
haha...pls don't make me a roasted piGggggggggg....

aniwae....i still have a grudge wif that BBC...
together wif the impact of what the econs teachers did to me...
g0sh...
i'm more than a roasted pigGggg....

tryin' to blog a VERY LONG blog...haha...
this is what boredom does to you...
hw the hell u spell it??
ahhhhhhhhhh...i hate spellin'...

aniwae....yes....it leads you to doin' a GP essay in which you do not have a comparative advantage in...
den u start doing an econs essay in hope to lessen the ' after-you-get-back-econs-essay-and-fail-it-flat-and-cry-like-mad-and-to-come-to-know-that-this-is-a-form-of-devastation' aftereffects....
den you suddenly looked at the clock and decided to go watch TV to c wad's new showin'...and to later find out that the show ain't tt nice...but u still havta watch it c0s' it's gonna b dinner time so0nz....
den u eat dinner...watch the boring news and flip the channel until u find a JAY CHOU MV...haha...
den u start to watch a u tink it's nice but ur bro thinks it's stupid show...
den u come here..
and start to intrude and rant on another person's blog!!!!! hahahhahahahhahahha....
YES...that's boredom...

//Brandon struck at 9:27 PM\\

Monday, September 25, 2006

someone h0r...
gt BBC for prelims l0r...
so irritatin'....
jiu shi the blog's owner l0r....
yuCKs!

summore the monitor buy new one already still dun wana cum and update....

//Brandon struck at 7:27 PM\\

Sunday, September 24, 2006

cool~just bought a monitor in sim lim square this afternoon, an acer 17" AL1716, which is an LCD screen... yeah i thought i heard someone, dunno who, told me acer sucks, but the price still prevails. $268, dunno can go toilet how many times :-/

and later walked down to sheng siong supermarket with bro n mum, so long never go down so just paid a visit loh.. didnt really expect the whole place to be so musky and dull-looking, and one thing, it is no place for amateur trolley-drivers. dangers lurk everywhere, 'cos the people there never seem to realise you are driving a damn metal trolley and walk STRAIGHT towards you :S and then the place today was so squeezy, i struggled to push past the crowds, using only lots of 'excuse me's and abit of mental calculations to see how i squeeze through a certain width with the required velocity *lol no lah*

oh shit got gp compre and essay, since i failed my prelim paper1... tio die....

//Brandon struck at 8:41 PM\\

Friday, September 22, 2006

boO! haha.....
the blog's owner's com. spoil...
so i update for him l0r...
haha....his com so lousy one...
the screen...dunnoe why...suddenly bcum so SMALL...
so cannot c anithin' l0r....haha...

so bored so bored so bored....=P
EeEee....tired tired...

in my blue blue room....
i am towered by a white white ceiling...
staring into this brown brown blog...
wondering....which blog will i go to next....

haha...

//Brandon struck at 9:51 PM\\

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE.

"I am at peace" (LOL EH PEACE PEACE, PEACEEEEEEEEE)

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them. *wow*

How to Get Along with Me (super freaking true)
If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
Ask me questions to help me get clear. Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
I like a good discussion but not a confrontation. Let me know you like what I've done or said.
Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a Nine (freaking true)
being nonjudgmental and accepting
caring for and being concerned about others
being able to relax and have a good time knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a Nine (True to the power of n)
being judged and misunderstood for
being placid and/or indecisive
being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
being confused about what I really want
caring too much about what others will think of me
not being listened to or taken seriously

Nines as Children (reminds me of my childhood....)
Often feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant tune out a lot, especially when others argue
are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

Nines as Parents (not yet la hor i dunno XD)
are supportive, kind, and warm
are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

goodness, damn true can? try it, learn somthing about yourself... http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=6711512663497470889

//Brandon struck at 7:08 PM\\

Thursday, September 14, 2006

tsk, the three days that i waited for so long during the september holidays zoomed by so bloody fast... they say time flies when we are having fun, ABSOLUTE TERM only need one case to prove it wrong XD

gp
luck on my side, thank you thank you... essay came out a question on democracy, which i got 28 for a class essay, hopefully i can get around 25 *pls pls pls* comprehension came out a topic i learnt in cj for the 1st 3 months, so really wish i can pass, no need flying, walking or running can already....

physics
how can anyone get full marks for mcq??? goodness! paper 2 was abit more ok than paper 3 but still considered disastrous *sigh*

chem
my fav subject, although it went low when mdm lee called my parents over kicking ball in class :-/ what the heck paper1 next tuesday, and now i got break from thursday to monday *kaoz* praying hard for paper2 and 3, i think i can do well, provided i'm not careless...

maths
my top and most confident subject so far, but past experiences have shown that the higher the confidence, the higher the disappointment, so *crossed finger* praypraypray.... pls let me get a A, or B also can....

econs
eh wait, i dropped already right? XD

a problem
will only be a problem
if i want it to be....
life can be hard,
life can be tough,
life can be cruel,
but as long as i stand by
pure determination
pure belief
pure brute strength
i can belive i'm indestructible...

//Brandon struck at 8:35 PM\\

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Here i GOoooo......

Screamz my lungs out

try to let u know

that food chem REALLY SUCKED

but i noe....

i have no choice

But to M-E-M-O-R-I-S-E !!!!

for A'lvl happens juz

Only OncE....

wth

damn bored of food chem, can?

what a good choice made by the chem department.

EASIEST option??

wth....

//Brandon struck at 11:41 PM\\

Sunday, September 03, 2006

1 week break.

should be 12 days' of break from prelims, which totally took the momentum out of me, *sigh* how to kick off the studying train whose engines are so difficult to fire up before the prelims? today i got the strangest dream i could had for the past few days; but the trouble is, i've forgotten the content of it :S i think it's about something that i had not done for a veryyyy long time: flaring up. i thought so since i woke up super annoyed by the vacuum cleaner. Wth, vacuum-cleaning the house so early in the morning (actually 10am but i watched the boring england match until 2am lah....) and i know i must carry on from where he left: mopping the whole house. *sigh*

but of course i'm used to it. i grew up being reprimanded for being stupid whenever i fall down, ever since i had sense in my head. i grew up expected to know everything about singapore's harsh society, without anyone actually teaching me how. i got conned, i got cheated, i was despised, i was hated, before i could really integrate into this country's schooling culture. By now i was battered, even accepting the fate that unfolds in front of me everyday. What can you expect from someone who grew up playing toys with himself all day at his grandma's house? i've wasted my childhood....

i dont know why i'm pouring out all these right here, seriously, maybe it's because of what happened few days back when my junior decided to take the plunge that i now sees life very very very differently. i look at myself, i dont know what am i proud of. Is it the 9 points? Is it being in S72? Is it being part of the '10-year marist alumni'? Is it SJ? Is it being in fitness? i look at my brother, his situation in his a'level year is so so so different from mine. At least he could stay at school to study until nightfall, since he can afford to skip dinner with my parents. At least he can go out and study during holidays, since there's nothing at home to worry since both my parents were working. At least he's not hooked to playing warcraft, since he need not be cooped at home to show his presence. At least.... i dont believe he could survive through the scenario i went through during JC, the feeling of being frowned upon by all closed one, the role of being the punching bag for everyone under the roof to vent their frustrations on, the sense of helplessness that he will never feel in his A'level year....

basket

it sure hurts to lose contact with a very good friend....

As mr roland lee replied to me on teacher's day, "thanks, study hard, relax. dont stress yourself with negative thoughts. just think happy, think of a rooney goal and you will be alright. i still believe you will do very well in your studies. it is just a matter of whether you believe in it too."

3 things i realise,

1) the last 2 sentences mean i did badly for paper 3
2) i got one more person not to let down
3) thinking of rooney's goal DOES make me feel happy LOLx

//Brandon struck at 9:46 PM\\