//...strike!...\\

Monday, January 01, 2007

what a way to kick start a new year, playing bnet in the lan shop, which is actually quite dumb really...

alot of dumb stuffs happened recently.. note that this is by all means no negative thoughts, just some dumb stuffs to ponder upon from the previous year, to forget and to carry on life in the new yr...

if my mom's account were to be correct, none in eunice's department actually went for her final farewell! but the dumbest part is, the apparent reason is that no one really liked her when she's still alive! that can only reveal how scary office politics really is... my point is, since she has already passed away, why cant we let bygones be bygones and bury the hatchet? for me i actually wanted to go but my mum again dont take me seriously when i said i wanted to go... i mean, how dumb can she be? to think that she believe i could actually be joking about such matters only tells the role i play in my family... why am i stuck in this kind of dumb home?? back to the point, i was actually quite disappointed for not going for the final sending off, even my bro went, wth... *sigh*

this may sounds dumb, but in reality my birthday has already lost its magical annual appeal... there are three kinds of people in the world: the first sees everyday as a gift and enjoy it to the max; the second only look forward to certain days in a year, be it birthdays, festivals etc; the last one sees everday as... well just another day in a year, no special events hold any meaning to them... somehow i'm stuck in between the second and the third one... the last 2 years hadnt been more chaotic, i mean the emotional scar is deep enough to haunt you every year... you know, stuffs like ur mom telling you on your christmas eve that your dad has only 3 months to live *thank goodness he's still well and ok now*, stuffs like someone you know just passed away suddenly while on the way to work.... somehow life doesnt seem as strong as it was made out to be, yet i will still believe in life itself, 'cos no matter how strenous the journey of life can be, i have to complete it in the right way....

yet when the sj people celebrated mine and jc's birthdays together i had this cocktail of guilt and happiness... why guilt first? i had hardly contributed anything to sj in all my 6 years, and jc had poured in blood and sweat to the building of the corps.. i really cant hold any candle to him, hence i dont deserve any kind of celebrations more than smses... happiness is 'cos i... well i dont know why though....

with the arrival of new year comes new hopes... in the family tree i may be a loner but i live for myself and no one else... wish all with bestest of health in this new year, 2007

//Brandon struck at 12:00 PM\\