//...strike!...\\

Friday, August 10, 2007

no doubt these few weeks were stressful, somehow all the problems just came together as a cluster... it just makes ur whole life unbearable isnt it?

tues: went to see the specialist regarding my back, he says the best cure is ORD, i say FUCK him understand? who can understand the fear i had when i momentarily lost all sensations waist down? couldnt sleep that night, was so disappointed in everything.. wanted to cry but didnt eventually... why is that everything is going against me?

wed: returned home after a day in outfield with slight fever, thinking of ponning the ndp duties but in the end didnt, took panadol and slept, whilst waiting for a sms that never came...

thurs: national day, spent the whole day at marina sq, feeling rather spent from the fever tt subsided and standing for long hours , which was torturing my back.. met up with zhanhui for supper and returned home late with another slight fever.. didnt took panadol and slept, whilst waiting for a sms that never came...

today: enjoying this much needed precious rest, trying hard to settle all the mixed feelings whirling in my head... i knew i'm trying my best in everything, but why?

things just dont happen
people just remained as they were
sceptical thoughts wont disappear
disappointment and discouragement kept settling into my head
lethargic is paralysing my whole body
breaking down seemed to be the option
but there's enough self-control within not to let it happen
somehow...
the grip is losing
the devil is devouring
the warrior within is stain in
fear, sorrow, disappointment, weakness,

Given Up (Linkin Park)
wake in a sweat again
another day's been laid to waste
in my disgrace
stuck in my head again
feels like i'll never leave this place
there's no escape

i'm my own enemy

i've given up
i'm sick of living
is there nothing u can say
take this all away
i'm suffocating
tell me what the fuck is wrong
with me....

i dont know what to take
thought i was focused but i'm scared
i'm not prepared
i hyperventilate

looking for help somehow somewhere
but no one cared

i'm my own worst enemy

i've given up
i'm sick of living
is there nothing u can say
take this all away
i'm suffocating
tell me what the fuck is wrong
with me....

put me out of my misery

put me out of my

fucking

misery!!

i've given up
i'm sick of living
is there nothing u can say
take this all away
i'm suffocating
tell me what the fuck is wrong
with me....

//Brandon struck at 2:03 PM\\