anyone wanna help me change blogskins? Been kinda lazy haha...
Just rejected 2 places in NTU for com.engr at NUS.. Besides NTU being in boon lay *groans*, several factors were the key reason why i didnt want to go to my previously targetted uni.. Kinda ironic, huh? Before army i was so keen about hostel life and now i'm so put off by it.. I mean, no point spending almost 2hours travelling to ntu just for a stupid degree right? Though i reckon' ntu's courses are somewhat less generalised as compared to nus, i dunno its my own feeling after reading through both websites :S and also SMU came into consideration, but i guess that place isnt for me.. I will literally bow out from its openess of the style of education... SIGH wth i only realised nus science rejected me last year when i reapplied for this year.. So hard to get in meh?
Actually wasnt really looking forward to studying again.. I sort of lost that fire to mug and K books for grades.. Somehow i always dunno what to answer when anyone asks a simple 'how are you' question; i mean must i say 'yea i'm fine how u?' just to sastify their expectations? We are living in a world where everyone puts out their strongest front when appearing in their society.. But then again, why pull the glum face during a glorious occasion? Its headache-full in camp if i see everything as a problem-in-the-making, but well army IS problematic, a fact everyone knows but hardly discussed.. NO WAY am i discussing it man, i dont wanna any troubles :S
Been thinking alot again recently, or should i call it brooding, this world sure looks bleak for the future. NAh i think i starting to sound like straits times or TNP.. But sad to admit i havent really gotten up yet after the bad fall last year.. Yes i recognise that fact, Yes i know i must do something about it, but stuck in an army camp? Man what can i still do? Everybody are like poker players; you couldnt know what cards they have on their hands, and you dunno when they will come out with their royal flushes, straights, full houses etc.. S'poreans just cant cooperate with honest intentions.. They are always making use of someone to influence an outcome that ultimately aims to benefit only themselves in the end.. Not that i'm condemming it as something bad, 'cos it IS a fact of life; its normal, its nothing bad, its just human nature.. But i've known of exceptions, of course, and these people are my great buddies and friends, BUT not relatives
X Japan "Crucify My Love"
Crucify my love
If my love is blind
Crucify my love
If it sets me free
Never know Never trust
"That love should see a color"
Crucify my love
If it should be the way
Swing the heartache
Feel it inside out
When the wind cries
I'll say goodbye
Tried to learn Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer
Is this forever
Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away, and I will know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry
//Brandon struck at
12:39 PM\\