//...strike!...\\

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

ok am i not susposed to post anything about the cobra?? ok whatever...

anyway wasnt really planning to post but had nothing to do since modem kept d/c-ing while on bnet, i susposed divine intervention led me to here =X but really, i wasnt really sure what to say either.. These few days were originally planned for me to enjoy home to the fullest before spending the next 3 weekends in thailand.... WHOOOPS am i susposed to blog that? dont charge me please =( but ended up somewhat nostalgic, in a sense when small little stuffs just kept reminding, sometimes to a point of haunting, me about all the experiences over the past 4 years or so, when all troubles started from 2005..

i so wanna restart if given a chance!

but life's no game, every step every decision could backfire so bad, it just haunts you every single moment when you shut your eyes.. sigh but what else can i do? Then i tried thinking all the fond memories and realised not for the first time, my home is actually my boulevard of broken dreams... 8 months on and we are still trying to pick up the pieces.. sometimes i am feeling quite exhausted; cant things just go smoothly for once? Yet being humans, we focus too much only on the unhappy stuffs, and overlook stuffs that went smoothly, simple things like, "Oh, today i was so happy, i've enjoyed myself.." We emphasize too much on how jialat our lives are, we can forget that we are happy today but we can always remember the saddest, most stressful, suckiest period last month or last year... Sad sia sometimes it's just too hard to look forward...

But then again, i have lots of stuffs running through in my mind, and top of the list is the aims from now til at least ORD at next year march... MANZ i need someone to help me plan i too lazy muahahaha..

Short one, meaningless one, but a post well done nevertheless =D I had wanted to feel lucky, but i guess: life's too unpredictable to confirm anything (THANKS ALPHA =_=) so i wont go as far to say i WILL be back in 3 weekends' time before my next post;

rather,

i think i should be back by 8 sept. who knows?

LOL

//Brandon struck at 11:22 PM\\