//...strike!...\\

Sunday, October 26, 2008

I've seen smoke coming out from TVs...

I've seen smoke coming out from CPU monitors...

I've seen smoke coming out from a toaster oven =_=

but my modem?!

sigh, somehow it gave way to a new subscription plan at a higher speed with lower fees... Call it blessing in disguise?

I think jay chou new album.. eh not bad lah just that his fast songs even if i follow the lyric book, i cant decipher what the heck he singing lol... nevertheless after 彩虹 another song struck a chord within me, track number 2

给我一首歌的时间
作词/曲：周杰伦
编曲：林迈可

雨淋湿了天空毁得很讲究
妳说妳不懂为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默悔的很冲动
就算这是做错也只是怕错过
在一起叫梦分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果我能承受
这最后的出口在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里妳不用害怕失眠
哦如果妳想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
妳送我的眼泪让它留在雨天
哦越过妳画的线我定了勇气的终点

雨淋湿了天空毁得很讲究
妳说妳不懂我为何在这时牵手
我晒干了沉默悔的很冲动
就算这是做错也只是怕错过
在一起叫梦分开了叫痛
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛
迷路的后果我能承受
这最后的出口在爱过了才有

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里妳不用害怕失眠
哦如果妳想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
妳送我的眼泪让它留在雨天
哦越过妳画的线我定了勇气的终点

哦妳说我不该不该
不该在这时候说了我爱妳
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
哦请告诉我暂停算不算放弃
我只有一天的回忆

能不能给我一首歌的时间
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
在我的怀里妳不用害怕失眠
哦如果妳想忘记我也能失忆
能不能给我一首歌的时间
把故事听到最后才说再见
妳送我的眼泪让它留在雨天
哦越过妳画的线我定了勇气的终点

妳说我不该不该
不该在这时说了爱妳
要怎么证明我没力气
告诉我暂停算不算放弃
妳说我不该不该
不该在这时才说爱妳
要怎么证明我没有力气
我只有一天的回忆

//Brandon struck at 1:31 PM\\

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Running was good; it helps to sweat out all the stress from your body... the long awaited Zhao Yun, completed long ago bt upload only now :S

from this...

to this...

the horse...

and finally the full model

and in the end i bought him

very plain as usual so he's under construction nw :P

//Brandon struck at 10:52 PM\\

Friday, October 10, 2008

Very bad day, i finally understand why i hate and am grateful about the army so much.. Contradicting feelings, yes, but true, army just proves to me the ugliest side of mankind, well at least singaporeans.. A short day today allowed me to see most of my platoon mates' ugly sides, so long in army with only 5-6 more months to ORD... The selfishness alone was already very suffocating in the office, let alone greed, senseless words, anger, frustration...

I realised i was very affected by it, 'cos i found myself wishing that this whole episode just had to stop.. At a point of time some of them felt so alien to me... Are they the ones whom i chionged with during cresendo and all the exercises over the past 1 year? i couldnt recognise them at all for the period of time...

And when i reached home at 9pm the gate was locked; the house was still dark, as though it was empty ever since morning.. Quite obvious my family's argument wasnt settled ever since i booked in last weekend... Seems like i havent recovered from last year ordeal after all

life sux

//Brandon struck at 10:38 PM\\

Saturday, October 04, 2008

It didnt get better, will this ever ends?

Kinda sucks when u are stuck in between two feuding parties; it's either u are the 'holy messenger' or u just feels downright useless for being unable to improve the situation, especially if u are part of the cause for argument :S

For a long time since i'm able to decently understand human conversation i've always been a cause of tension and argument; either i was too 1) well taken cared of, 2) being pampered, 3) spoilt, 4) not being asked to do stuffs instead or just because i'm the youngest at home :S Actually i'm ok with it, after all i didnt choose to grow up alone in grandma's house being my own playmate; in fact that was the happiest moment of my life.. True i wasnt of much help even after so many stuffs happened to this home, but at least i tried cheering them up by being a clown at the correct occasions and standing out whenever help is needed.. Yet when this home needs another driver i hesitated, not because of the price but because i simply have not enough faith in myself being on the wheels.. i wont imagine myself being steady enough to drive from point A to point B with 3 precious lives in it... Let's just say self-confidence ceases to exist ever since a long time ago... and also the reason why i cease being part of marist SJ

yet when i'm bounded by the chains of my past, this song just echos loud in my room

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影失去平衡
慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

//Brandon struck at 12:45 AM\\

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

weird, huh? being on off from today until sunday then book in and unexpectedly i felt so frustrated just being at home.. Yeah did i mention before in the previous posts that being in home is like entering my 'boulevard of broken dreams'? I know, i know, everyone was like hearing me wanting to go MO get mc for being 'homesick', but that's just a harmless joke..

i'm saying all this 'cos i think i'm caught in the middle of the argument between my mom n bro... OH FUCK IT its a son arguing with his mother and i'm somehow the centre of the whole hoohah.. Spoilt my mood for dota, oh great and it doesnt help that my modem kept d/c halfway thru the game 'cos we are sharing the modem =_= ARGH it just feels so sucky right now being in my house, i just wanna go out and take a breather.. Both are so stubborn and possess a fucked-up mouth that spew poisons when threatened... i guess i'm not that similar to them, though sometimes i do get too critical in my talkings...

FUCK LAR actually i do have a topic for a post, but this stupid stuffs have to screw everything up... so its just pure rantings rantings and more rantings, oh wells i dont know when the next real posting will come

SIGH

//Brandon struck at 11:07 PM\\