Very bad day, i finally understand why i hate and am grateful about the army so much.. Contradicting feelings, yes, but true, army just proves to me the ugliest side of mankind, well at least singaporeans.. A short day today allowed me to see most of my platoon mates' ugly sides, so long in army with only 5-6 more months to ORD... The selfishness alone was already very suffocating in the office, let alone greed, senseless words, anger, frustration...
I realised i was very affected by it, 'cos i found myself wishing that this whole episode just had to stop.. At a point of time some of them felt so alien to me... Are they the ones whom i chionged with during cresendo and all the exercises over the past 1 year? i couldnt recognise them at all for the period of time...
And when i reached home at 9pm the gate was locked; the house was still dark, as though it was empty ever since morning.. Quite obvious my family's argument wasnt settled ever since i booked in last weekend... Seems like i havent recovered from last year ordeal after all
life sux
//Brandon struck at
10:38 PM\\