//...strike!...\\

Saturday, October 04, 2008

It didnt get better, will this ever ends?

Kinda sucks when u are stuck in between two feuding parties; it's either u are the 'holy messenger' or u just feels downright useless for being unable to improve the situation, especially if u are part of the cause for argument :S

For a long time since i'm able to decently understand human conversation i've always been a cause of tension and argument; either i was too 1) well taken cared of, 2) being pampered, 3) spoilt, 4) not being asked to do stuffs instead or just because i'm the youngest at home :S Actually i'm ok with it, after all i didnt choose to grow up alone in grandma's house being my own playmate; in fact that was the happiest moment of my life.. True i wasnt of much help even after so many stuffs happened to this home, but at least i tried cheering them up by being a clown at the correct occasions and standing out whenever help is needed.. Yet when this home needs another driver i hesitated, not because of the price but because i simply have not enough faith in myself being on the wheels.. i wont imagine myself being steady enough to drive from point A to point B with 3 precious lives in it... Let's just say self-confidence ceases to exist ever since a long time ago... and also the reason why i cease being part of marist SJ

yet when i'm bounded by the chains of my past, this song just echos loud in my room

一盏黄黄旧旧的灯
时间在旁闷不吭声
寂寞下手毫无分寸
不懂得轻重之分
沉默支撑跃过陌生
静静看着凌晨黄昏
你的身影失去平衡
慢慢下沉

黑暗已在空中盘旋
该往哪我看不见
也许爱在梦的另一端
无法存活在真实的空间

想回到过去
试着抱你在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你的看的世界
想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去
试着让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁

//Brandon struck at 12:45 AM\\