//...strike!...\\

Sunday, December 28, 2008

alrites....

i guess i'm alot better than i expected during the start of the year when this day arrived... Yeah like finally i'm 20 years old in the 29th... I havent had a good feeling during birthdays for the whole of this year... Surprise surprise Lam Chih Bing's birthday is the same as mine and he was from Maris Stella High O.O like wow hahah...

But really, i thought i would be damn emo today and tomorrow; 1 year isnt enough to heal all the injuries i had from 2007. So ok i'm just a little on the emo side today, especially during the fitness outing this afternoon. Fitness? Tough times i had in the 1 and the half years in the CCA at SAJC, but it was thoroughly enjoyable and memorable... If i had any regrets it have to be one thing: the brandon of the 2005-2006 fitness era is dead.. 2007 and 2008 were the life-changing points in life; i just dont feel the same anymore.. I can never be as lame or as hard-willed as the guy i was during the 2 years... And as if fate has a say, my SAJC 'class of 2006' keychain broke off yesterday when i tugged my house key out of my jeans pocket..

And in reality i feel really shagged; partly 'cos from a china trip that i didnt enjoy much at all, the rest from the exertions from NS.. At last my NSF life has nothing left to throw at me, thankfully i have already cleared everything that was expected of me. But i cannot ignore the drain it had on me; how many times did i numb myself through work and doing all the shit during this NSF period? I initially thought it was impossible to spend so much energy doing something else such that at the end of each day u would be too exhausted to be emo, but in fact it can be done. I never had so much relief when i saw my workload ended on the day i passed my SOC; it's like 11 months worth of efforts paying off in front of you.. With the end of 2008, i hope i wont be numbing myself through work again in 2009

i wont be celebrating my birthday again this year; i havent seen the need to. In celebration i meant fancy dinners and birthday songs, i guess i would break down if i hear the most popular song in the world. And i really dread the 21st one, i dont feel like having a tradition grand celebration as expected in my family as for now... Wont they understand? my father was there when my bro turned 21, but he will not be when it is my turn next year

ALRITES i'm not feeling depressed or sad, just plain emo hahah...

happy birthday, i hope 2009 will be alot better for me...

As if! i cant imagine how would i be happy if i can foresee tons and tons of things waiting ahead of me...

1st on the list: find a private driving instructor and settle all the irritating stuffs i gotta do during my course of learning driving... SHEESH! who would have thought learning how to drive can be such a hassle....

2nd: paint 3 boxes of gundam!

3rd: finding a job to fund my allowances after ORD!

4th: decide on my course of uni! its my last chance!

5th: should i go back to MSHSJAB?

6th: enter uni and survive it for the next 4 years!

omg......

//Brandon struck at 9:32 PM\\