//...strike!...\\

Monday, March 09, 2009

I fear becoming an adult..

Previously i have no qualms about it; it's just another inevitable stage of life we all have to go through.. But after yesterday's dinner, i was getting more uncertain than before the road that lies ahead of me.. Yet another family dinner with my grandparents were ruined by petty squabbles.. As usual i tried my best to cheer the atmosphere up, but when grandma turned her face against me, i knew the celebration was over.. Yeah its susposed to be my grandfather's birthday dinner, but because of a small incident it became a domino effect; everyone was so blinded by anger it destroyed what susposed to be a joyous event with nice food..

Ever try eating while feeling down? No matter how many dishes you try, they only have 1 taste: bitterness.. I was glad grandpa brought a bottle of martell as he enjoyed it mixed with cold water on rocks.. So i followed suit, except that mine had so much more martell even after mixing it got the same colour as my cup of chinese tea :D So i drank and drank, but i forgot 1 important stuff all drinkers should not: dont drink with a dull feeling.. Just 2 cups and i can already felt myself smiling at nothing and feeling light-headed... Perhaps this is how i express myself when i'm feeling damn disappointed and disillusioned by the grown-ups; if my destiny is to grow up and behave like them, then i guess i will allow fate to pull me along as it deems fit , 'cos suddenly after watching them arguing and bitching around for so many years, i felt quite numb at it.. Where's the family warmth now? Even now i think my best family member has to be my computer in my room, kinda sad... Even in a bad day like this there will always be a hero rising up to the occasion.. This case, well, 2 heroines whom are my 2 young cousins.. Somehow in their own small little world of fun and laughters they managed to turn the situation around and bring smiles to not 1 but both of my grandparents.. Not even the usual bubbly pet of the family, me, could do.. I guess i'll have to pass down my ranks to the 2 little ones now lol..

The best food of the day? It had to be the martell..

//Brandon struck at 11:10 AM\\