//...strike!...\\

Monday, May 11, 2009

Nothing short of a confidence crisis =/

Sometimes its just so frustrating; why would i bother to go take up driving lessons had i known it will carry along so much problems that seemingly only i among the rest face? I cant help but to feel envious of people whom actually enjoy their driving lessons.. Feeling kinda screwed 'cos the instructor gave me a vote of no-confidence in the upcoming test and still went ahead to further pull down my already low morale... To add on to it my mom and bro tag-teamed on me about the mounting expenditure of the driving lessons.. Cant they just give me a break? I'm already depending on my own savings paying for the lessons, almost hitting 1.8k which has already overshot my budget, another source of irritation definitely...

I really really really really wanna pass it first time, as a second would meant definitely breaking the 2k mark, but the odds are really against me.. I cant stand it when they say i'm not putting in efforts; wth?! Why would i wanna spend more than 150bucks every week just to get scolded and screamed at? Why would i actually REJECT job offers because i havta go for lessons on weekday mornings?! Why would i wanna wake up at 7am just to get screamed at and affecting the mood for the whole day as the result?! Why would i wanna endure all those damn situations in hope that i can pass first time?!

I just wanna do it for my family, period... No one knows fully how valuable the license meant to me.. But the harder i try, the odds just seemed to become higher for me to overcome..

Man, do i feel drained really....

//Brandon struck at 8:51 PM\\