//...strike!...\\

Thursday, June 04, 2009

I cant believe it either, but i'm back to the running route 3 days after completing (err ok, walked most of it zzz) sundown.. Before i forgot to mention, while running i had to skip past a moth the length of my forearm! Huge enough to cover my face... Damn it was monstrously big, its kinda scary lol... Is it a Venomoth?? LOL... Anyway yeah, had alot of stuffs going on in my head so figured maybe running will clear up all the rubbish in the agenda and correctly order all the priorities.. Alot of stuffs going on in my head? Man, this statement's gonna disappoint both mom and bro; they always assume that i'm just not thinking enough.. For the record i'm always thinking, but maybe not so much on the sensibility and the common sense side... Ok i admit i'm a born daydreamer =_=

Which made me realise how much i've drifted from this family in these turbulent 2 years.. Ironic, huh? We're susposed to be more tighter and united, but the crisis just made everything looked scarily clearer.. Everyone are just not true enough to each other; i mean what we in Chinese words say '耍心机' shouldnt even be used especially in between family and friends, but i'm seeing it everywhere, and its very frustrating when you are powerless to do anything especially in households, except to join in the game.. Something to clarify by my term of 'family' i also include second and third degree members, for eg grandparents aunts uncles cousins etc.. To say i never ever use the '耍心机' will be false, but i've seen its effect and i dont like one bit.. To strangers yes, it pays to use as a cautionary measure especially with all those marketing or similar stuffs like that, but i would prefer not to on family and friends, unless provoked..

Talking about the marketing schemes or similar, they can boast about how much they can help you earn within a short period of time or promises huge passive incomes, but i still wont join in the end, even if it means missing a golden opportunity i will still give it a miss. Why? Those people will never understand the powerful tool family support can give to a person, especially me.. If i were to take up a very unpopular choice in life right now, the opportunity cost of suffering the condemnation far exceed that of the money earned (if u earn) from such schemes.. And how come i dont hear from them when the economy is good? But anyway to point out the fact that i was a hot target for it since i'm in a single family will especially highlight the fact that family support is even more important in these crucial times.. I dont really care if i could earn big money and use huge cash to buy massive bungalows or super branded cars (For the record i dont really have dream cars, i just want it to be fuel efficient and most importantly, 4 wheels =D), but whats the point of having these if the very people you are earning for dont agree with your methods, though legal but still unorthodox? I havta apologise to my friends for rejecting such a massive massive opportunity, but i cant afford to undertake such a risk, at least in these ravage times..

Ravage times... Shouldnt people unite and be brave during such crisis? When the '耍心机' faces came out i knew straight away they wont learn any lessons... In case you are wondering, i'm in fact are still running at this point of time, maybe 8km into the distance i've clocked... Nono i dont mean i'm blog-jogging (blog-jog? sounds vulgar lol...), this is the actual trail of thoughts i had while running.. Yeah, instead of clearing and pressing the F5 button i added in more thoughts, zzzz... Better not to hang out the skeleton in the cupboard out and dry in blog i might as well change the subject.. And so i tried running again, man i vowed not to touch my running shoes for the next 3 weeks or so but i'm back into it within 3 days =_= The starting 4km is, well, not very smooth (all the more after skipping past Venomoth and scaring the hell out of me) due to a very dull pain on the left chest.. Yes yes i've heard enough medical advices to know that i should stop running and rest.. Not that i didnt stop but the pain persisted, so i carried on anyway =/ *ok it did disappear in the end*

I actually fell in love with running! For someone whose napfa didnt even pass or get a silver from primary 5 all the way to J2, it's somewhat qualifies for the Noble Prize for Slob-turned-Runner award, if there's one... It started when i signed for 42km Stanchart.. At that time i didnt even attempted a half-marathon before! So of course i had to train for it (For the record, again, i didnt even participate in AHM during army.. really!) and the training process made me a fan for running.. My favourite part of running is when your body reaches a stage, which i described as the 'warm-engine' stage, whereby it become effortless to coordinate breathing and the movement of your legs.. The euphoric feeling as if you will never ever run out of energy is simply indescribable.. I did reach warm-engine in Stanchart, only to succumb to, i'm telling the truth, cramps and simply the pain of tired muscles tightening up... Its quite normal actually; its the body's SMS to you to stop running and rest awhile 'cos it exceeded its performance limits..

Halfway completing Bishan Park, my body sent a SMS reminder to me that i've just finished Sundown and almost immediately, i came to a halt with a sudden exhausted feeling.. Man, i sure havent recover much... For my growing interest in running, i have only regretted that i'm not blessed with a body suited for running... Back injuries, poor stamina, born with a right leg longer than its left counterpart, you name it.. The sole reason why i joined stanchart and hopefully the subsequent ones is that i dont want to wait til the time when i cannot run anymore, most probably my back problem, then i regret not running when i'm able to.. My back problem sometimes hinder running, but the only way to overcome it is to just becoming stronger, thats all.. If Johnnie Walker says, "Keep on walking.." Then i guess Brannie Runner will say, "Eh, keep on running, loh.." *sounds gay lol...*

Which brought me back to the ravage times topic.. When will people learn? Will they wait til one day i was discovered lying on bishan park dead, wearing a stanchart singlet with Nike shorts and Ascis shoes? Seriously sometimes childishness just seemed to increases with age...

Wow, what a long post, i'm shagged *faints and lands on bed properly*

//Brandon struck at 12:25 AM\\