//...strike!...\\

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Thanks to those who went for the party on Sunday, really appreciate it... OK i know its like the umpteen times i've said thanks and the appreciations, but you will know why...

If you asked me last year whether i'm going to hold a 21st birthday celebration, my answer would be, "No way in hell, whats the point?" yeah really, whats the point? At that time i'm still having some sort of a phobia to the happy birthday song, which you may think is weird but considering that

(although the following lines may seem a tad too emo but its really words i wanted to say during the party, although i thought its wiser not to, and its really from the bottom of my heart, nothing sad nothing offensive, just words)

dad left us exactly 2 weeks before i turned 19, the first occasion i heard the birthday song, which was about a month or more later, i almost crumbled while singing.. It was as if theres no purpose in having birthday celebrations anymore, so whats the point?

But kudos to my mom and her sisters for forcing me for the chalet, for i'm truly touched by the turnout of friends during the party.. It adds alot more purposes into life now, which was the magical touch i need to carry on moving forward in the tough uni life ahead.. Although dad cannot be here with me, my paternal grandmother has difficulties moving and so unable to come, and my maternal grandmother who brought me up are unable to attend due to recuperation from her recent hospitalisation, i still consider the celebration a success... As much as i wish the above 3 people are able to witness the celebration, the turnout as well as the warmth my friends gave me during the party sort of calm the emotional nerves within, threatening to erupt throughout the whole party..

And i was very surprised i was rather calm; i didnt get a hint of emo during the singing of birthday songs, the family photos, all those which i thought will trigger a flood of emotions and hence, tears during the celebration.. Maybe i want to save face, 'tough guys dont tear in front of anyone' kind of logic, but what i believe that its is

a sign to be strong,

to carry on no matter how tough life may be,

to appreciate all the people you loved and cared,

to endure through all kinds of shit for family, friends and loved ones

thanks for everything, everyone =)

//Brandon struck at 12:50 AM\\