//...strike!...\\

Saturday, July 24, 2010

been awhile since i've blogged.. and i must shout out this,

"PLEASE DONT LET ME BECOME SHORTER JUST BECAUSE ALICIA FELL ON MY HEAD!!"

whewww ok...

what a month! tiring but rewarding, but at the same time worrying about spending time at home etc etc... everything in life isnt really perfect; there's always a flip side to everything.. Spending time in school does helps, especially since I'm learning new stuffs or doing activities that had never crossed my mind, like dance performances and until recently, cheerleading (ouch my neck) ... But it means not having meals with family, missing out playtime, losing abit of touch with secondary school friends, having less sleep etc.. For the next two weeks, endure!! hahaha

been so tired recently too, and helping out the committee suddenly seemed such a mountain to climb... Feels bad cant really help girl much as i wanted to, cos the energy level is still very low.. and the sudden sore thoart was quite a shock, as it's normally followed by a fever... Thank gawd no fever still hahah.. For the orientation event and girlgirl, endure!! hahaha

and being tired makes you search deeper within your feelings.. how to explain? i guess is really instead of asking stuffs like, "yay i'm happy =) " , "hmmmm why am i so happy?", it's more towards pondering whether "am i happy now? or am i hiding emotionals underneath?" or feeling the unexpected surge of emotional feelings when you are just stoning, resting from exhaustion.. yesterday in a cab, i was so tired my head started spinning out questions like

"Oh man, this is bad... how i continue balancing dance, FOW etc etc..?"
A: k lah that one, just endure loh hahaha

"Where's the last time I took a cab alone?"
Which kinda reminds me of my late father..

miss sitting in his cab after a tiring day in school,
miss all the family outings that started from a Citycab Premier,
miss being so reliant on his cab to bring me around SG 'cos i noe i wouldnt get lost..

so tired in the cab, i can't get myself loose from all the constant thoughts that pouring into the brains... but as i msged girlgirl that day, "a smile makes a happy occasion even happier, but the impact is bigger during stressful times.."

i think i smiled in the cab hahaha.. guess the cab driver was rather amused by my stupid grin lol

For life, family and friends, endure!! hahaha

//Brandon struck at 9:39 PM\\

Tuesday, July 06, 2010

Camp Law states that in every camp, sure got cock up one.... nice one Jaws hahahah

"It takes forever to plan out FOC, but only 4 days and everything is over.." another frequent remark I made during the camp, which I finds it rather true..

Today's final debrief marks the almost 7 months' worth of hard work preparing for FOC, Freshman Orientation Camp 2010.. Made quite alot of new friends, widen my scope of learning about human inter-relations... OK that previous remark makes me sound rather unhuman hahaha, but honestly, the only one mystery that puzzles me is how we interact with each other in our daily lives, cooperating for a major project or in an organising committee for camps etc etc.. It never fails to amaze myself on the amount of new stuffs that I can learn every single time..

Which reminds me of the stuffs back home... Havent really found pleasure in going back my childhood home, where it is falling apart and i'm quite powerless to do anything other than watching pieces by pieces, cracks after cracks forming..

Anyway, the uncanny mix of lack of understanding and selfless cooperation, two opposite poles that repel and attract at the same time, really amazed me this time round, like totally... Shouldnt go much into details, 'cos sensitive ah hahaha...

But the bunch of friends made in FOC is great! hahah never felt happier working with them even though it was a super tiring camp to organise, plan and execute, but everyone concluded the camp with a smile, more of relief and happiness.. Totally enjoyed the process, even though at some time during the camp it looked rather hopeless, but we settled down as a group, cracked our brains as a group, and executed impromptu activities as a group... Next year FOC? see how la ah hahaha....

FOW is coming up, and dear girl girl is the vicechair of the committee.... Things hasnt been going well in the committee though, I hope they have the will and the strength to pull it off successfully... jiayou girl!!

4 months loh =)

//Brandon struck at 1:23 AM\\