//...strike!...\\

Saturday, July 24, 2010

been awhile since i've blogged.. and i must shout out this,

"PLEASE DONT LET ME BECOME SHORTER JUST BECAUSE ALICIA FELL ON MY HEAD!!"

whewww ok...

what a month! tiring but rewarding, but at the same time worrying about spending time at home etc etc... everything in life isnt really perfect; there's always a flip side to everything.. Spending time in school does helps, especially since I'm learning new stuffs or doing activities that had never crossed my mind, like dance performances and until recently, cheerleading (ouch my neck) ... But it means not having meals with family, missing out playtime, losing abit of touch with secondary school friends, having less sleep etc.. For the next two weeks, endure!! hahaha

been so tired recently too, and helping out the committee suddenly seemed such a mountain to climb... Feels bad cant really help girl much as i wanted to, cos the energy level is still very low.. and the sudden sore thoart was quite a shock, as it's normally followed by a fever... Thank gawd no fever still hahah.. For the orientation event and girlgirl, endure!! hahaha

and being tired makes you search deeper within your feelings.. how to explain? i guess is really instead of asking stuffs like, "yay i'm happy =) " , "hmmmm why am i so happy?", it's more towards pondering whether "am i happy now? or am i hiding emotionals underneath?" or feeling the unexpected surge of emotional feelings when you are just stoning, resting from exhaustion.. yesterday in a cab, i was so tired my head started spinning out questions like

"Oh man, this is bad... how i continue balancing dance, FOW etc etc..?"
A: k lah that one, just endure loh hahaha

"Where's the last time I took a cab alone?"
Which kinda reminds me of my late father..

miss sitting in his cab after a tiring day in school,
miss all the family outings that started from a Citycab Premier,
miss being so reliant on his cab to bring me around SG 'cos i noe i wouldnt get lost..

so tired in the cab, i can't get myself loose from all the constant thoughts that pouring into the brains... but as i msged girlgirl that day, "a smile makes a happy occasion even happier, but the impact is bigger during stressful times.."

i think i smiled in the cab hahaha.. guess the cab driver was rather amused by my stupid grin lol

For life, family and friends, endure!! hahaha

//Brandon struck at 9:39 PM\\