Sunday, September 12, 2010
yesterday was a scary day..
wasnt feeling very normal cos had a great night before celebrating wing's birthday at glasshouse fish and co, the cam-whoring sessions and the laugh-out-loud-until-head-pain time at MINDS cafe.. Supposedly the day after it will be happy happy, but ended up more like a hangover =/
It's just this sudden overwhelmed feeling, something like an ocean tide pushing hard against your chest and your legs are not touching the seabed.. The sudden realisation of the amount of stuffs in your hands waiting to be cleared, and it all boiled over when an afternoon spent struggling with a single tutorial assignment, due coming Tues... Naturally my mood wasnt the best, girlgirl went worrying for me when I couldnt fall asleep even though I have to wake up 345am for AHM later.. True it's not the first time, but the surge is unusually huge this time round.. What happen?
I found my answers on the running route during AHM.. Kinda struggled, 'cos never trained well at all, plus the hours logged in to studies I've been neglecting my running shoes long enough.. I was running with 2 friends, and I didnt take long to find myself running alone due to the lack of stamina.. Then I rediscovered my motivation on why I starting running in these events.. It wasnt for the medals, finisher tees, vouchers, but it's for the strengthening of the determination to see through even the strongest odds.. The desire to push through the breathlessness, pain in the knee, stitch attack, exhaustion to carry on running rekindled a fire within me.. The fire that suddenly glowed into life at the end of 2007, which gave me the 'Keep on Running' mentality, admittedly faded over the past 1 year or so.. Am I complacent? Am I content with life? Have I forgotten why I started running in the first place? Quite phenomenally, I was a different person after the race...
That was when I regained the much-needed focus that I badly had to acquire for the tough semester this year.. I wasnt as scared when I came back home, took a well-enjoyed nap despite the hot weather and managed to solve the homework that I struggled so pathetically yesterday...
Power of the motivation? Never underestimate it =)
//Brandon struck at
10:18 PM\\